No. I generally don’t use either

You might be right, it mentions 89% Polyester, 11% Elastane.

I did notice that the discoloration almost completely disappears after hanging it outside in the sun for a few hours.

It still gets very smelly as soon as I wear it though (which is not the case with the newer ones) but maybe that’s just polyester in general?

Can’t run it on higher temperature with these shirts though, they will get wrinkly and it’s permanent (label says max 30 deg c)

All my other clothes from the same wash are perfectly clean, just these older synthetic shirts have this. I think the drain is ok, pretty new machine too.

I guess the reason I got polyester is because it dries so fast, making it a bit better for hiking and sports for me (I sweat a lot) Wool would be great, especially merino. But it can be so pricey and It tends to be itchy for me.

Haven’t found something good as a replacement yet.

I’ve had this problem even before using more detergent. I just tried more this time to see if it would help.

I can’t run a cycle on hot with these shirts because they will warp on anything above 30 degrees celcius.

I’ve heard soaking in borax might help, but didn’t try yet.

It might be, but my newer shirts in the same wash don’t have this at all.

I’m using a specific program at low temperature (30 deg c) because otherwise the polyester won’t survive

So what would you suggest? Soaking into vinegar/water for a while and then rinsing in the machine?

That makes me wonder again.
How do they separate the effects of genetics from behavior you have learned from your parents?

Especially considering it is often said that most of your behavior is learned from the first few years of your life.
Apparently conditions like Autism and Complex PTSD also have a lot of overlapping symptoms and it can be difficult to distinguish one from the other. (And often they are also co-occuring)

I think sense (and emotions) are some of the most difficult things to remember for me. Which might explain why certain things which are easy for others are very difficult for me. While other things are much easier to me than for most people.

Makes me wonder how many people with Aphantasia have actually had a traumatic childhood.

Because for me it also seems almost like I don’t want to remember things or maybe my mind is unconsciously trying to process something or suppress something and that actually influences my capacity to remember and imagine things.

Maybe i’ve never really spent time learning how my body works and what I want. I’ve always felt like I shouldn’t really have any needs because then I would take space from other people. Not sure where that comes from.

I wouldn’t attempt, I will write it down as soon as I have more than 1 thing to do.

Laundry specifically can be a bit tricky, because I might remember to do it and put the clothes in the machine and run it. Then forget that I was running a wash and accidentally stumble upon it a few hours later, clothes wet in the machine.

If I remember to take them out and hang them. I will often forget to take them back inside when they are dry. (it’s different depending on the sun, so not really something I can set a timer for)

Often I won’t notice until the next day, and then I might have to wait a bit longer to make sure they dry again if they got damp overnight.

That’s nice to hear. I’ve had this one day this year, where I was feeling… I suppose I would call it ‘safe’. And then I would have motivation to do things, and when I watched a tv show, I could actually feel a bit the emotions of the characters in the show.

First time i’ve experienced something like that.

I used to lock up on questions like what was your favorite vacation. I would literally try to remember every vacation I’ve had (already very difficult) then try to compare them (almost impossible)

So usually I would have no response.

This also made learning language difficult, because during practice they ask these kind of questions all the time. But I wouldn’t even be able to answer in my native language. They just thought my language was not good.

Yeah, I’ve always felt like it was an uphill battle. All the things I’ve tried in the past I usually give up after some time. Even things like medication seem to have very limited or sometimes opposite effects on me.

I tried virtual sessions before, but find them not that useful to work on the things I have trouble with, if that makes sense? But maybe somebody with the right experience would still be able to make it work.

It was suggested to me to focus on some form of somatic therapy, rather than talk therapy, to first learn how to listen to and understand the signals my own body is sending to me.

It’s only recently I even understand that my emotions don’t seem to work like they do for typical people. I’m already glad I have some more specific direction to look for now.

Thanks for your comment

I checked the link you sent me and a lot does apply to me.

I know that I have a strong reaction in general when something doesn’t go well. But I am also scared of showing or expressing it, so it seems like I subconsciously suppress my reaction. Instead, I will feel pain in my stomach or a headache.

I also wouldn’t say I have heightened emotions, but maybe I’m just feeling overwhelmed most of the time, so I end up feeling numb.

Must be kinda funny to be just sitting there one moment, and then the next suddenly you need to have KFC. Do you find it odd yourself, or you just go out immediately to get your potato and gravy?

I always felt a bit different than most people, and just not sharing experience which seems to be common. But at the same time I’ve heard it’s not really good to compare yourself to others.

I would say all therapists are unusual to me, because they are able to remember what we said after our session. Write a report about it, and continue where we left of in the next session. For me that feels like an amazing ability to have.

I think I’ve never really felt that safe with a psychologist. Especially if they are talking much, I tend to just agree with them and I can’t really think very well at the same time.
It also seems like they have no idea that I’m feeling distressed.
I often would cough and vomit before an appointment, but be relatively ok during (because I’m focusing on the conversation), only to be exhausted afterwards. But none ever mentioned me looking stressed or anxious or anything.

Would be great if I can find somebody who is Autistic and has experience with CPTSD. But I have no clue how to look for that. And I don’t really live close by a lot of options, and traveling far drains my energy fast, so I can’t really do much in the session anymore, apart from sitting there and listening.

I’ve read a bit about IFS, but I can’t even imagine different parts of myself. Seems like very difficult to work on that